From Up Above

I honestly can’t believe it’s been 5 years. I used to laugh at people when they said stuff like “it feels like yesterday” and “time goes by so slowly yet so quickly” and you know all the other cliché things people say. But here we are 5 years later and it truly does feel like it was just yesterday, when you asked me to be your girlfriend. There is so much that I want to say, just finding the right way to say it is hard… Darn another one of those clichés. Well let me start by saying that you are the most incredible person I know. We have been through EVERYTHING together, just within the past year we had some rock bottom lows and some cloud nine highs. And I am so happy to have gone through it all with you, baby. I’m so happy that God brought you into my life, and gave you the strength to deal with my psychotic breakouts. I truly believe that you were made for me for that reason alone, because no other man on this planet, not even my brothers or my dad, can handle the crazy mess of a person I am. We started dating a couple months before my grandma got sick and passed away, and you were by my side during the hardest part of my life… And haven’t left since. You’re a beautiful person inside and out and I’m happy to have been blessed to have you in my life. I love you with all of my heart and soul. Happy Anniversary, Baby

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1. What’s your middle name? LeAnn
2. What are you listening to right now? “I told you” by Ramiyah
3. What was the last thing you ate? Two tacos from jack in the box.
4. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Sarina
5. Do you drink? I have had a drink on occasion 1 or 2 times, but I don’t drink
6. Do you smoke? No
7. What is the first thing you noticed in someone? Don’t laugh, but the thickness of a guys neck, and the length of a girls eyelashes.
8. What is your hair color? Brown
9. What is your eye color? Brown
10. Do you wear contacts/glasses? Glasses.
11. Dogs or cats? Cats.
12. What’s your favorite animal? I would have to say lioness because they do everything to provide for their family.
13. What’s your favorite television show? Of all time, Boy meets world.. At the moment Big Time Rush/Criminal Minds.
14. What’s your favorite movie? Notebook, Grease, Sandlot, mean girls and Hocus Pocus.
15. What’s your favorite band/singer? Hmm Big Time Rush at the moment/Chris brown for 6 years.
16. How old are you? 21
17. Do you have a crush on anyone? The love of my life.
18. What’s your sexual orientation? Antony ;D lol.
19. What’s your favorite color? Yellow, green, and sky blue. Which would be my wedding colors if I was getting married in spring, but I’m not so *pbbbt*
20. What was your most embarrassing moment? I don’t really know, nothing really sticks out.
21. Do you ever wish you were someone else? No, I love who I am, only thing I’d change is my anger management issues.
22. What were you like when you were a kid? I was very awkward I think when it came to friends, and all about family.
23. What would your dream house be like? There is far too much detail to even try to begin writing about it on this post.
24. What last made you laugh? Big time rush.
25. What is your favorite word? Stealth.
26. What is your least favorite word? Trust.
27. What turns you on? Thick necks and ankles and warm and funny… Oh if you can handle my personality that’s a bonus.
28. What turns you off? Arrogant.
29. What is your star sign? Would that mean my astrological sign? I’m a Virgo.
30. What are your favorite books? Cookbooks and anything Dean Koontz and I won’t lie, twilight and Harry potter sagas.
31. Do you have any siblings? Yes, 6 of them.
32. Do you like to dance? Love to, alone.
33. What is your definition of cheating? Doing something or having thoughts about doing something that would betray the trust of a loved one.
34. Have you ever cheated on someone? I have never and I will never. I have been cheated on and I know the pain of going through it, I could NEVER do that to someone.
35. Do you regret anything? Having sex before I was married.. It truly is a gift that should be shared with the one you want to spend your life with and feels the same way about you.
36. Do you have any phobias? Arachnophobia.
37. Ever broken any bones? No I have not.
38. Ever come close to death? Yes.
39. What is your religion, if any? One might say I’m a christian, but not the judgmental psychotic kind. I believe in God, not in religion.
40. Have you ever been to a psychiatrist/therapist? No, but I absolutely should.
41. Are looks important in a relationship? Something attracted you in the first place, but It just depends on how shallow you are.
42. Are you more like your mom or your dad? Definitely my mom.
43. What is your favorite season? I like to call it California season. Whatever this beautiful state gives me to work with.
44. Do you have any tattoos? On my body nay, on paper absolutely.
45. Do you have any piercings?yes
46. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? 1 real one, 3 pathetic ones.
47. Have you ever had a crush on a fictional character? Yes.
48. Who is your celebrity crush?Christopher Maurice Brown.
49. Are you a virgin? Sadly, no
50. Do you get jealous easily? I try not to, because it’s an ugly quality.
51. What is your favorite type of food? Uhm, the kind you can eat.
52. Do you ever want to get married? Yes I do. Just waiting for him to ask.
53. Who was your first kiss with? Rajesh in preschool, we got married everyday.
54. Have you ever been cheated on? Yes like I said its a pain I never wanna feel again.
55. What is your idea of the perfect date? Enjoying each others company.
56. Are you an introvert or an extrovert? both.
57. Do you believe in aliens or life on other planets? Yes, because I don’t see what could make earth so special. God created the universe why would he make so many planets for no reason?
58. What talent do you wish you’d been born with? Singing.
59. What is your saddest memory? Seeing my grandmother at her funeral.
60. Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes, I’ve never felt it but I’m sure it exsist.
61. Do you believe in soul mates? Absolutely, and you honestly feel it in your souls when it it’s real. And it is literally almost painful to be far away from each other for too long. And when you think about your love for this person you wanna cry. And every single day you wake up, you thank the good lord above for putting them on this earth.
62. Have you ever dyed your hair? Yes.
63. Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you? It’s possible but who cares.
64. Would you go against your moral code for money? No.
65. What are three things most people don’t know about you? I am not self confident, but try to hide it. I have a hard time showing my love. I have a lot of compassion for people.
66. Who are you jealous of? I have no reason to be jealous of anyone.
67. Do you sleep with a stuffed toy? Before I moved in with my future husband all the ones he gave me that smelled like him.
68. How long was your longest relationship? 5 years next month.. With many years to come.
69. Is the glass half empty or half full? It’s half a glass, just drink it.
70. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? Holding me, with my face in your chest and making me feel safe.
71. Who is your most loyal friend? My family.
72. Are you in a relationship? Yes :D.
73. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? I like that he loves me unconditionally no matter how crazy psychotic I get. And he deserves every ounce of love I have for him. And he can piss me off and yet I still want to be next to him.
74. Are you a bad person? I try not to be and I hope that people agree.
75. Are you a lover or a fighter? Im a lover.
76. What did you do on your last birthday? Chili’s, beach bonfire.. And the people who will always be there for me were all there.
77. What is your favorite quote and why? “I have the ambition not only to go further than any other person has ever gone, but to go as far as it is possible to go” because I dream big, bigger than a lot of people. Some people don’t believe in me, but I believe in me and that’s all that matters.
78. If your best friend died, what would you do? I honestly cannot fathom the idea of what I would do.
79. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would it be? I would focused on my grades a lot harder and went to NYU for journalism and photography and started working on my magazine.
80. If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you do? Make sure all the people I love knew it. And take care of all unfinished business and go to church. I don’t wanna be a ghost I wanna go be with the man upstairs.
81. What is the strangest dream you’ve ever had? All the dreams I have are strange and far too detailed.
82. Are you happier single or in a relationship? I’m happy with Antony Daniel Holley
83. Who were you in a past life? a rape victim and a gypsy.
84. What is your happiest childhood memory? Cooking with my grandma.
85. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? Yes, and it hurts.
86. Have you ever had an imaginary friend? Not that I remember.
87. If you were the president, what would you do? I would follow through with all my promises, no matter what congress had to say.
88. What is your ideal career? Owning my own magazine, owning my own bakery, owning my own clothing line and scent… Just owning things and being an actress.
89. What is your political affiliation? I’m just Liberal, I don’t “affiliate”.
90. Are you conservative or liberal? Lol answered that ^. I’m extremely liberal.
91. Is the male or female body closest to perfection? I think they both perfect for each other.
92. Do you like kissing in public? No not at all, personal display of affection for me.
93. If you could change one thing in the world, what would you change? The wealth of my family, so we could support each other without struggling and help those around us. When I become rich, I will have a scholarship fund. And they will find a cure for breast cancer and cancer in children.
94. Where would you like to live? Anywhere as long as I’m happy with him.
95. Where would you go on your dream vacation? I would go literally EVERYWHERE. UK, France, Italy, Australia, Africa, south America, Canada
96. Describe yourself in one word. Loyal.
97. Describe yourself in one sentence. I dream big and believe in my dreams wholeheartedly.
98. Where do you see yourself in five years? Married happily possibly with child(ren), checking the books for all my businesses. And booking shows for Antony.
99. What is your greatest accomplishment? Keeping a smile on my face everyday.
100. What is the meaning of life? To love and be loved unconditionally.

Honestly I wish that the girls under 30 had anyone OTHER than Simon Cowell, because I don’t know what the hell he was thinking when he sent home girls for the top 4.

The top 4 x factor girls should have been (in no particular order):
° Tora Waloshin
° Melanie Amaro
° Jazzlyn Little
° Caitlin Koch

And if Simon didn’t wanna hurt the little girl’s (who can’t sing) feelings.
° Rachel Crowe

The top 3 x factor girls should have been:
° Tora Waloshin
° Melanie Amaro
° Jazzlyn Little

But we all know what’s really going on. Simon wants this Drew girl to win, so he stacked the group in her favor. Put all the shitty singers (aside from Melanie) to the next round that way they all get voted off and boom, I don’t have to pay 5 mill to someone who deserves it AND the one I want to win.

On September 21, 2011, a man lost his life, a mother and father lost their son, siblings lost their brother. Troy Davis was accused of a murder in 1989, that’s 22 years he’d been in jail fighting for his freedom. Casey Anthony was in jail for 4 years or so, and was found not guilty for the murder of and neglect of her daughter due to reasonable doubt. The fact that her daughter was missing for 30 days and not once did she say something, should have been enough for most people. Or how about the fact she apparently had a babysitter that didn’t exist. 9 people testified against Davis, then 7 of the 9 changed all or part of their testimony saying the that police threatened them or they felt forced to give a testimony. Of the 2 that didn’t change their testimony, was a man who was also suspected of committing the crime. On top of police coercion no gun was ever found, no solid evidence of the crime was ever given. Bullets matching the gun were not even recovered for days after the murder, until a bum allegedly found shells that POSSIBLY matched the type of gun used. All they had was “he said, she said”. After countless appeals from Davis himself and many supporters trying to get clemency, all were denied. And Davis killed by lethal injection. Samuel Crowe also accused of murder pled guilty and admitted to the crime was granted clemency and was given a life sentence. Here’s the thing, Crowe admitted and was given a life sentence and was allowed to continue to breathe. Anthony was found not guilty and gets to continue to live her life. And yesterday an innocent man lost his life.

“I AM TROY DAVIS, and I AM FREE! Never Stop Fighting for Justice and We will Win!”

This made me SO mad. #RIPTroyDavis http://t.co/g6baVLPb

If you’d like to read his whole story here’s the link.
http://t.co/VYYj8MvN